It seemed simple when I wanted to make this post after a few weeks since I last updated my blog. I rarely put in personal stuff, day to day rants, my experiences, about the people around me etc in my blog because I presumed it to be a platform to share my works and only that. So much is going on in our daily lives that could hardly be put into a confined circle. Sometimes the overwhelming joy, the unbearable pain, the hatred/fervor over stupid people makes us less patient. They urge us to share our emotions with someone out there who may be willing to listen or confide with our thoughts.
Dreams are one thing that keeps us move forward. That which pushes us to take one more leap, encourages us to take up one more fight, to give one more hit, one more heads up, a last try etc. The same dreams of a person provide the lessons one ought to learn in his/her life time. Some dreams are easier to explain, but hard to achieve. Some are intentionally complicated but turns out to be a piece of cake.
The struggle begins the moment we tend to make understand people what we want to achieve, what our dreams are. I’m struggling a lot to make myself understand what I want to achieve which I know is not so much wiser.
Another obvious thing that had been pondered over and over is that, people tend to draw a straight line and lead an ordinary life but still think of themselves as high creatures of the species and preaches others to follow them right. The problem with these people are not only that they think those who follow their path will become successful, but also that those who refuses to do so may go to ashes or become inferior kind to their eyes. They don’t give a shit about your priorities or circumstances, for their unsolicited views over life seem more valuable to them than our own issues. The counter effect triples up when this shitty attitude comes from our close ones. Let me make a blunt statement here. ‘People are so less selfless these days’. So much had been ranted about the people. The only way to keep ourselves moving is to avoid them utterly from the core of our hearts and show them the middle finger if they ever try to drill into our desires.
I also have to mention something contradictory to the above gobbles. There are certain people whom I wish could be by my side and pat me over the head when I’m playing the wrong move. Be it supporting my passion, being alongside, helping me forget the noise of the outside world. But then again, expectations brings misery especially when two souls are different.
One more thing I wanted to rant about is being complex to the people around. I solemnly believed my complexity brings defense. That it will protect me from making acquaintances with unfavorable ones. I still hope so, but the reality plays otherwise. My own complexity turned out to be a stumbling block for me to grow and find my own path. The way I wore my complexity once seems like a stupidity now. It was the excuse I gave myself for being less affirmative. But then realizations maketh the best of a human right?
…(and it goes on)